поля от слъчногледи

so i fucking travel.. that is all i see.. in my sight..

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Гледат към слънцето
Поля от слънчогледи
Хиляди малки слънца

i didnt ask for a fuckin EU 2 big subsadary you know.. nor i asked to live my life for me.. all i asked was a moral support.. you know -- there you go bastard -- you can do it..

Гледам и аз
Ябълка и праскова
Устни затворени

i dont expect a wellcoming parti.. nor a red carpet and limo.. i fucking hoped that there will be someone to have a bud watching the sunset or maybe even the sunrise.. why not have a walk in the SP..

Сняг и ябълков цвят вали
Чисто и бяло
Никога не ще се стопи

i once recalled seeing a white snow.. well not white as in virgin-white-just-have-fallen snow.. more like.. preserved snow in the mountain due to various terms and condition that happen in this environment.. i didnt have a coin.. i didnt give up though.. i asked.. i put it on the snow.. i didnt like it.. i move it a little bit.. still i didnt like it.. no matter how i tried to pu the coin on the snow -- still i didnt like it.. i even made a photo of it.. to remember that i dont like it -- not that i am gonna forget it..

Няма изток от рая
Посей, огледай болката и отрежи.

so i am there.. well here actually.. but still i refuse to have a dull weekend.. it is the reason i am here -- not to have another dull weekend.. i had enough of them already..

Поля от изгорели малки слънца
Поля от присъдени болни цветя
Поля от изгладнели любовни сърца
Поля от слънчогледи бели петна.

more or less things worked out for me.. i had a bud.. zagorka to be honnest.. with some of me hommies.. can you magine -- here in sofia -- hommies.. i watched the sun go down.. then go up again.. had some 1 hr sleep.. had a pleasent talk..

i mean it is no use cursing all in existence.. especially when i am responsible for the situation.. i mean life cant be always the way i want it to be.. things will not always fit.. or more likely i will not always fit in things..

but i am still here.. still time to kill.. still time to have more fun..

and a fun it must be..

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абе тва е.. имам още време до нощния влак.. приемам оферти почти всякви.. вече се отказах да звъня на хора да ги питам -- понеже очевидно не успявам да нацеля момента..

its all up to you.. time is ticking..